Yarn: Caron Simply Soft (Autumn Red, White, & Dark Country Blue)
Hook: G 4.25mm
Pattern: #67 200 Crochet Blocks by Jan Eaton
Size: 6.5" square
Thank You: All my appreciation to you, my readers, for all the support and comments. I've read blogs and commented when others have had situations arise, and you always read afterwards how much it meant to them....well, now I know! It really meant a lot to me and it really helped. We are fine. My husband is fine. We are in daily contact with our niece and she has very good support back home. Shes back in school and back to her part-time job. She made a wonderful tribute about her and her mom on her myspace...but it's private, so there is no way to link..you would have to be 'a friend' type thing to view it. The status of when my husband returns to the ship in the gulf is unknown...he is 'checking in' this morning on base (San Diego) as I type.
My crochet hook is warm lately. Feels like a warm pair of slippers- getting back to sitting on the couch and crocheting. I love knitting, too (or the idea of it since I haven't been knitting lately) but when I pick up that hook it's like butter on a warm roll. I'm thinking of making a afghan for my husband (for our living room) in the colors above using many different patterns of blocks. Lately, it's comforting while watching football with my husband to be crocheting. He enjoys me doing it while he's watching, too. Although, I haven't shared my plans with him! To have these small moments of time after having him on this 6 month cruise is just wonderful although under awful circumstance.
My thoughts are all over the place surrounding this all and the big move in two months to CO...(I want to figure out how to put my countdown ticker at the bottom of the blog) Any hints? Perhaps only a person who has experienced the military lifestyle knows when I say this... No matter how good the family relationship is...there is that dynamic that goes on days before your spouse comes home, about three days after they enter back into the family, and then again when they leave. No matter if they are gone a 1 week, 2 months, or 6 months...the 'changing dynamic' goes on. To think that as we approach the last three years on a 'shore' command-this dynamic will cease. Of course, then it will be with the dynamic of "gee, don't you have anywhere to GO?" HA!
I approach this with humor most of the time, but sometimes I have a very selfish thought process surrounding this- thinking of how many times this has had to go on through the years and although I'm very thankful- I'm just plain 'tired'..I know every other military family has experienced the same thing, but some times I'm hard on myself- to make everything right during these times-to hold down the fort-to keep the home fires burning...and I think I've done a fine job at this or it wouldn't have lasted this long, but sometimes I realize I have to be gentle with myself and say, 'Look-give yourself a break you've been doing this for almost 17 years.' Don't get me wrong..I have a lot of 'down' time and 'me' time..I don't mean that...I mean the mental tiredness that is occurring this late in the game.
This 'gentleness' I talk about is going to be incorporated into my New Years Thoughts that some call resolutions. Is it too early to talk about this? For me- no. I enjoy the process of thinking about the past year and what I want to realize in the coming new year. Of course, when you experience a death in the family it really makes you think.
I'm sorry this is so long...I sometimes have trouble reading long posts as well, but I guess what I want to really say is that I've 'missed' coming here. At times I felt like I wanted a break from blogging, but not in this way...but it was funny during different times of the day during this break a few of you would pop into my head and I would wonder what you would be doing! You guys mean something to me...this is a real extension.
...and finally, I turn 36 today... the idea of 'clicking' past the 35 mark bothers me I don't know why, but it does...so let me just publish that for all to see!!! I have a very good friend out there that is 43 or so that would think 'gosh, to be 7 years younger'...but I'm beginning to hit that age I realized how FAST these years are moving...30 was a blur and to think of how much I've done since then, well....never mind... my mind trails to the above items.
SO, it's Happy Birthday to me!
Thank you guys for being there!